Wednesday, December 24, 2008

A Purpose

I think that we all feel that we need a purpose in life whether it is God, children, a career, family, etc. What I have been trying figure out for myself is, can a person's passion be their purpose? Are they one in the same? If so, how do these two things correlate? Are they connected, are they completely separate? How different are they, how alike are they? Can you have one without the other? There is no way that I can answer all this for myself in this first blog, but maybe throughout my blogging experience I may find the answer.

(emotion): feeling very strongly about a subject or person, usually referring to feelings of intense desire and attraction, be very passionate about something.

My passion is, undeniably, music. Every aspect of music I am completely in love with, the making of it, the recording of it, the listening of it! I can't stop thinking about this art form that just about every person on this earth is affected by daily. All I want to do at this point in life is get better at creating and performing music. I find it hard to explain in words how I feel about music. I can only relate it to the love that I have for my family, or the feeling that you get from that first person you fall in love with. A love that reaches so deep inside of you that, no matter what, will never leave you. Maybe this all sounds too corny or mushy, but this is the only way that I can explain it. In any case, this is what music means to me....this is probably a lot of the reason that I am single(that is another story all together).

Purpose: Something set up as an object or end to be attained.

A lot of people that I am surrounded by think of purpose as a religious term. Don't get me wrong, I see where they are coming from...I do! I don't see myself as a religious person. I have my beliefs, but I don't let them dictate what I think my purpose could be. This is a funny little problem, isn't it! Who decides what a persons purpose in human life is? Is it the person themselves? Can a person find such a connection to something that they can feel "this is my purpose"? Where does purpose come into play for me? Am I supposed to be playing music? What am I supposed to be doing with it? I feel a connection to it that I have rarely felt with anything or anyone else, I am driven by it. I honestly don't know if someone can decide their own purpose in life, purposes usually find the person...right?

Someday I hope to feel secure in what I am doing with my life. I feel that for the past 10 years or so that I have just been testing the waters with everything. It's time for me to make a decision and stick to it. People have faith in things that are unseen and unexplained; I need to have faith in my decision to play music. I need to jump in to this unknown, unseen, unexplained thing and trust myself to see it through. I love it, and that is all that someone needs to have in order to have faith in something. Maybe even a purpose.